Being Present and Finding Joy

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It’s been a hot minute since I’ve gotten back from the bachelorette weekend for my sister in Florida and her wedding in South Carolina. 🌴 What a week!! So much to do, so much to plan for, and so much to celebrate. 💐

My sister and brother-in-law said their vows to each other, surrounded by people that loved them dearly. 💍 As I listened to those vows yesterday, and watched the father-daughter, and mother-son dances, my heart filled with emotion for so many reasons. I was reminded of God’s love for us and His desire to see us happy, loving each other fully and following wholeheartedly after Him. I was also reminded that my husband and I made these same commitments to each other five years ago.
Much has changed in our lives since then, but one thing that has remained unchanged is God’s love for Josh and I. And it’s been because of that love that we are always working on our relationship together, and doing our utmost to always extend grace and love to each other as Christ does to us, His church. 💒

Knowing that my husband will be leaving for a deployment in four short months, has been, frankly, overwhelming. I haven’t known how to process it. Apparently I’ve been holding too much inside, trying to be all, “Oh, that is just part of army life” because it all came out in waves during this past week of wedding prep and festivities. I’d cry at the drop of a hat the moment anyone talked about his upcoming deployment, or anytime I spoke of our plans for this year. 🌧

JOY and PRESENT Those were the words I chose for this year. To find joy in everything I can, and to be as present as possible in the moment, not looking back and not trying to rush to the next future thing. This year, those words will be very challenging to me, but I trust God has a plan. His ways are better than mine, and yet again I must remind myself to, “Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you”. Psalm 116:7

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